Well, here we are. The holidays are finally over, but now it’s time for everyone to start “working” on their New Year’s resolutions. For some, it will go the same way it does every year: we have good intentions, but abandon them for the good old comfort of what they are use to. For some, they will get through the first couple of weeks, then decide what they wanted isn’t happening as fast as they wanted it to, then give up. Finally there are going to be those who stick with their resolutions either for themselves, their kids, or because their choices are do it or face something even harder. I plan on being part of the third group this year, after talking about it for so long.
My Goals For the Year
Finally Facing and Tackling My Diabetes
Today was the official start. I resisted eating the junk food, candy, breads, and pastas I wanted today, especially watching my son and husband eating chips, fudge, and other carbs. I was doing great until dinner. Hubs made me his version of a chicken chimichanga, but forgot to check the carbs in the tortilla before fixing it, and didn't tell me what he was fixing (his answer is always a teasing "food" when I ask what he's fixing), so we didn't check. One Great Value brand Burrito size flour tortilla has 32 grams of net carbs (?!). Net carbs are the amount of carbs minus the amount of fiber. So it looks like I am at about 52 grams of carbs for the day, done eating for the day, and probably had about 1/4 the carbs I had the last couple of days (I went hard at the sweets even though I knew I wasn't suppose to).
I downloaded an app called Carb Manager a long time ago, and decided to use that to track my carbs. After reading a lot of posts in the Keto Facebook groups I've joined, it looks like that is a great decision as a lot of people use it. From what I understand, people adjust their macros (the amount of carbs, protein, and healthy fats they aim for each day) as they continue to lose weight, and Carb Manager makes it a lot easier. My biggest weakness is going to be the sweets, but I know I have a low carb cheesecake recipe for my Instant Pot that tastes great, and there are plenty of low carb desserts that can be made. Fat bombs (usually sweet flavored treats that focus on healthy fats) are something to have in the freezer for sweet cravings and for days where you are below on your healthy fat count. Most people make them in ice trays for easy to remove, good size portions.
As of yesterday, I am at 198.8 pounds, and at last check my A1C is around 9.3. This isn't acceptable for me anymore, and I am bound and determine to make this work. I know I am going to have to make sure I have snacks around, take my own foods with me to family dinners (stuff I can eat and share), and make sure I don't get down if the numbers don't "look right" to me (the scale mainly). A lot of people say it is better to pay attention to your measurements instead of the scale, because the scale may stay the same but you could drop inches in that time. Also, I have to switch to water, or a water like substance to drink, like black coffee or unsweetened tea. I'm a soda drinker. This is the second biggest hurdle I'm going to have to jump.
If this works, I will be healthier, happier, hurting less, and eating in a whole new way. A new me compared to where I am now, and this is somewhere I hope to not be ever again.
Avon, Mexico, and Growing My Business
Even at the end of 2018, it was bound and determined to kick my ass. The week before Christmas I got a sinus infection, so I decided not to visit my customers so I wouldn't pass it on. I ended up at the doctor on Christmas Eve, and they were worried about a wheeze in my right lung, so I ended up on an antibiotic, a Z-Pack, and an inhaler. It was a fun way to start my day considering we had the family Christmas gathering that evening. I ended up in a bout of depression, which didn't end until January 2nd. I didn't post, didn't talk to anyone I didn't have to, and didn't do anything in that time.
So I started posting again, and I'm waiting until my Campaign 4 brochures to come in so I can hand them out instead of giving out Campaign 3 on Thursday, then collecting again Tuesday. It will hurt my Campaign 3 order, but it wasn't worth rushing my customers into ordering. As soon as my brochures come in on Monday, I'll get them ready and start getting them out the door again on Tuesday. I'm going to make sure I get all of my Campaign 4 brochures out (100 of them) and have to give out Campaign 3 brochures because I run out of 4. I have to get brochures out of my house before hubs tells me to throw more away (I hate wasting money like that).
We are now 2 campaigns into earning our Mexico trip, and I am still only 300 points in. I have to start messaging the leads I have of people who have been interested in becoming representatives before, and start finding more people who are interested in joining now. I want this trip bad. I need 4700 points for just the trip for me, and 6700 points for me and hubs to go. It's going to be a long road, but I am going to get this trip.
To get this trip and to give out all my brochures, I am going to have to push myself harder than ever, and harder than my family wants me to work. Right now I am working on writing this during the Cowboys/Seahawks game because hubs doesn't really want to game during it and it's the only free time I've had today that I wasn't doing something for or with hubs or midget. Hubs let me know a while ago that he wasn't happy with me playing other games or doing Avon when he was home because I wasn't spending time with him (even though it was fine before he started gaming again), so I try to do as little as possible when he is home. Midget is a little more understanding because he doesn't have the same bias against Avon that my husband and his family does. One day I'll change their minds, but its going to take a while.
Around the House
Anyone that knows me knows I hate cleaning. I hate it with a passion. But since I was out of commission in 2018, I wasn't able to do the little things that helped keep the house decent. Adding Avon boxes every couple of weeks didn't help either. So now I have to push myself to get the house clean, and quickly too. I started on the bedroom on Thursday, getting most of the pile of clothes out of the way. Midget finished washing them today, so I can finish the pile Monday. After tackling the bedroom I am goign to have to tackle my office, I am tired of sitting in the living room trying to work and everyone thinking that just because I'm in here, I'm not busy and can do whatever they want me to do right then. Extremely tired of putting my Avon on the back burner because of this.
Once I get the inside clean, I'm guessing I'm going to get to tackle the yard. With nothing but rain most of the year last year, and over half of this year so far (I know, we're only 5 days in, but it's been a rainy 5 days too), it's been hard to do anything, and with a hole in my stomach, hubs really didn't want me out there last year anyways just in case something happened to me. Understandable, but since no one did anything, now it's all my job. There isn't much I can do in the front yard other than take out the pile and get the sides of the yard. I honestly haven't figured out what to do to get rid of all the mud out there while it's raining. The back yard is over grown, and the neighbor keeps complaining to the county, so I have to take care of it so we don't have to pay any fines. Luckily they don't complain too much during the winter since there aren't many snakes. (Not like it matters much, there's a freaking horse field/farm on the other side of us, like snakes aren't going to be going through yards thank to it). I'm probably going to see if I can clean up the trash back there, then see who I can pay to do it. I hate yard work more than I hate housework.
Changing Me
In order to get all of this done, I am going to have to change me. I am going to have to stop being such a procrastinator, stop letting my family convince me not to do what I don't want to do, and push myself harder than I have ever pushed myself. I know I can do it, I just have to prove it to myself. I am not trying to, nor going to try to prove myself to anyone else. I have already been told about family members who call me lazy (pot calling the kettle black), don't believe I will do what I say I'm going to do, and let other family members know (including my son). Screw them. If you want to act like that, I don't care who you are, I don't have time for you, nor for you to be an ass. You're just trying to slow me down. I won't be like you, because I am better than you.
I got out of my funk a lot faster this year than I have previously, and I'm hoping that is a good sign. I don't have time for that crap either this year. While I know it is going to happen more, I have to make myself push through it because time isn't going to stop just because I've fallen into that hole.
Avon helped me feel better Christmas Eve because I gave quite a few family members different things from Avon (only the 15 year old got makeup), and they all seemed to like it. The 15 year old came up to me afterwards and thanked me for both things she received (the Spectacular eye shadow set and a Sharpie marker set), saying she really liked them both. The family member who received the pearl jewelry set had a shocked look on her face when she opened it (she kept telling one of her daughters it was makeup and that it was for Mommy only based on the box). I am so glad I was able to surprise them all, giving them nice stuff, and showing them that Avon isn't just makeup.
While I didn't write during the holidays, I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season, and has had a great start to their new year. What ever your "resolutions" are, I hope you tackle them, stick with them, and are able to conquer 2019 like I will!
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